ok, because i want pictures to liven up this blog, ill hold off any posts until i get my new 8 mega pixel(yeah you heard right. EIGHT) phone. i noticed the reason my last blog got so dreary and dry towards the end was due in part to lack of character. to keep this new blog interesting and refreshing, i feel its necessary to put up photographs of things i experience, making it easier for readers to associate themselves with the going ons. words can only describe so much right?
http://www.nokia-asia.com/find-products/products/nokia-n86-8mp
shes a beauty isnt she!
stay tuned, i should be getting this awesome, NON IPHONE NON BLACKBERRY NON MINDLESS TREND FOLLOWING, nokia handphone extremely soon!
Big Bob-
"aint nothing gay about getting your dick sucked! youre the ones thats gay for suckin my dick!"
Sunday, February 28, 2010
Thursday, February 25, 2010
conundrums of family and fortune
i had a discussion with my dad the other day in the car(seems like im doing a lot of talking in cars these days. maybe ill start taking the bus more often). it was a pretty livid conversation, and it being way too early in the morning didnt help much. the gist of it was how he blamed my sister smoking... on me. you know, because i was an "influence" and how she used me as an excuse to smoke.
"why if han can smoke i cannot?"
two things wrong with this picture. have you spotted it yet?
firstly, my sister is 18 years old, nineteen this year. she is an ADULT. adults do what they deem is right, whether good or bad. children cannot because they are too young, too innocent. like sponges, they absorb the ideas and actions floating around them because they dont know any better. thus, if my sister was a child, my actions would inadvertently affect hers due to me being an older brother and she looking to her elders for guidance.
however, as an adult, she already knows that smoking is wrong. her choice to smoke is not in anyway linked to mine. if i murder someone, would she follow? clearly not, because she understands that doing so will land her a lengthy jail term. all adults know that every wrong they commit will have consequences. thus, she knows that smoking will harm her health. its her decision to make, not mine. she isnt following me, shes walking her own path.
secondly, i smoke and my parents accept it(sort of) since i promised them i will stop before i go uni AND ive been pulling my own weight around here. i havnt asked them for money and have been living on my own wages for the past couple of years. of course living costs such as utilities and food they continue to provide because im more or less an investment for their future. by taking care of my basic needs they ensure i grow up to support them in turn.
it was at this point that my father dropped a bombshell on me.
"are you aware that your mom has been putting 300 dollars in your bank account every month since you ended jc?"
my god!
the next night, over dinner, i asked her about it and she confirmed what he said was true.
...
...
i have no words to describe how momentous this was for me.
see, i prided myself on being able to survive through working at uob and then with the pay from ns. all this time, i thought i was growing more and more independent, learning to slowly be weaned off my parents to eventually survive on my own. as far as im concerned, as long as you are working and drawing in a salary, money from your parents should be considered charity and refused based on principle. my stand regarding the matter is very clear and very forceful.
thus, you can imagine my frustration and indignation at this revelation. i explained to my mom that i DO appreciate what she did, because she was looking out for me and wanted me to enjoy myself. but i was extremely angry because i was not, as i had believed for MORE THAN TWO YEARS, been relying on myself for things i needed. i felt cheated of something, ROBBED even. which is curious considering i was RECEIVING money. i had to do something to prove my worth.
coming to the realisation that in order to attain peace of mind, i had to return the full seven thousand five hundred dollars(jesus christ thats a huge sum) my mom gave me, i concocted a plan that will mean huge sacrifice on my part. the bottom line is that the europe trip is cancelled, i need to find a job very soon and all luxuries will be put on hold indefinitely. that means no clubbing, public transport everywhere i go and eating at home more often.
is this how i want to spend my precious time before entering uni? no, but im doing it for the RIGHT REASONS. and thats what counts in life.
terrible.
well, its getting late... time for bed my friends. wish me luck. ive got a long, long way to returning that money.
lau-
"a rude awakening is made even worse when the day ahead isnt looking too good."
"why if han can smoke i cannot?"
two things wrong with this picture. have you spotted it yet?
firstly, my sister is 18 years old, nineteen this year. she is an ADULT. adults do what they deem is right, whether good or bad. children cannot because they are too young, too innocent. like sponges, they absorb the ideas and actions floating around them because they dont know any better. thus, if my sister was a child, my actions would inadvertently affect hers due to me being an older brother and she looking to her elders for guidance.
however, as an adult, she already knows that smoking is wrong. her choice to smoke is not in anyway linked to mine. if i murder someone, would she follow? clearly not, because she understands that doing so will land her a lengthy jail term. all adults know that every wrong they commit will have consequences. thus, she knows that smoking will harm her health. its her decision to make, not mine. she isnt following me, shes walking her own path.
secondly, i smoke and my parents accept it(sort of) since i promised them i will stop before i go uni AND ive been pulling my own weight around here. i havnt asked them for money and have been living on my own wages for the past couple of years. of course living costs such as utilities and food they continue to provide because im more or less an investment for their future. by taking care of my basic needs they ensure i grow up to support them in turn.
it was at this point that my father dropped a bombshell on me.
"are you aware that your mom has been putting 300 dollars in your bank account every month since you ended jc?"
my god!
the next night, over dinner, i asked her about it and she confirmed what he said was true.
...
...
i have no words to describe how momentous this was for me.
see, i prided myself on being able to survive through working at uob and then with the pay from ns. all this time, i thought i was growing more and more independent, learning to slowly be weaned off my parents to eventually survive on my own. as far as im concerned, as long as you are working and drawing in a salary, money from your parents should be considered charity and refused based on principle. my stand regarding the matter is very clear and very forceful.
thus, you can imagine my frustration and indignation at this revelation. i explained to my mom that i DO appreciate what she did, because she was looking out for me and wanted me to enjoy myself. but i was extremely angry because i was not, as i had believed for MORE THAN TWO YEARS, been relying on myself for things i needed. i felt cheated of something, ROBBED even. which is curious considering i was RECEIVING money. i had to do something to prove my worth.
coming to the realisation that in order to attain peace of mind, i had to return the full seven thousand five hundred dollars(jesus christ thats a huge sum) my mom gave me, i concocted a plan that will mean huge sacrifice on my part. the bottom line is that the europe trip is cancelled, i need to find a job very soon and all luxuries will be put on hold indefinitely. that means no clubbing, public transport everywhere i go and eating at home more often.
is this how i want to spend my precious time before entering uni? no, but im doing it for the RIGHT REASONS. and thats what counts in life.
terrible.
well, its getting late... time for bed my friends. wish me luck. ive got a long, long way to returning that money.
lau-
"a rude awakening is made even worse when the day ahead isnt looking too good."
Sunday, February 21, 2010
my strongest point
when looking at any one person, there are dozens of facets which determine his/her personality. we are all unique and different. in this sense, people are comparable to colours. theres red, orange, yellow, green, blue, indigo and violet. but in between there are hundreds upon hundreds of different shades. such is the same with men and women. we all have differences, whether minor or major, which makes us... us. but ive got a theory.
i believe that if you know someone very well, youd have no trouble describing them in one word. i mean, really, if a friend(like xin wei) asked you for your opinion on a close friend and to sum it up in a single word, you wouldnt actually have to think long before answering. because youve already subconsciously did it some time ago.
i know, i know. it would seem ludicrous to condense their whole being down into a single word. it would hardly do them justice. truly though, if you spend enough time with them it becomes crystal clear exactly what your opinion on said person is. their personality revolves around that one word! if i had to describe myself in a similar fashion... i would say i am Loyal. i pride myself on being intensely faithful to those around me who are excellent friends.
but this can sometimes backfire. you see, i KNOW im faithful, and can be trusted to help. because of this, i expect the SAME OF THE COMPANY I KEEP. ah. here i sound a bit fierce, a bit demanding. shouldnt i though? isnt that what true friendship means? i dont like to see it in terms of me investing time and effort into a friendship and expecting returns, because that seems shallow and immature. but i DO want to know that my friends appreciate me, and WILL stand up for me when the time comes. though perhaps not as intense as i would be in a given situation, because if everyone was as steadfastly loyal as i was, things would get quite heated quite often. but definitely on a level where i know they have my back, and i can lean on them for support unwavering.
take for instance if a group of friends i was with began back talking someone who i knew and counted among my companions. i would immediately and forcefully stop the conversation, insist that the topic be dropped because of ties to said friend and end with stating my concrete belief in my cohorts values. what i feel is an inappropriate response, bordering on downright betrayal, is to keep quiet and basically ignore people lambasting my close chum. that... can only be described as monstrous.
thats all i have on the subject for now.
some important events:
happy birthday kiat! the dinner buffet at mandarin oriental was magnificent and chatting with old friends was, as it always is, super(hello shi han, marcus koh). 21 at last.
fun and profitable chinese new year gambling at jeromes house on friday, where i lucked out and won 36 dollars during the last round when i volunteered to be banker and pulled a blackjack. lets do that again soon guys.
in closing, ill leave you all a quote which i think is very, very relevant to this post. and my feelings on friendship.
Jesus:
“Because thou art lukewarm, and neither cold nor hot, I will spue thee out of my mouth.”
i believe that if you know someone very well, youd have no trouble describing them in one word. i mean, really, if a friend(like xin wei) asked you for your opinion on a close friend and to sum it up in a single word, you wouldnt actually have to think long before answering. because youve already subconsciously did it some time ago.
i know, i know. it would seem ludicrous to condense their whole being down into a single word. it would hardly do them justice. truly though, if you spend enough time with them it becomes crystal clear exactly what your opinion on said person is. their personality revolves around that one word! if i had to describe myself in a similar fashion... i would say i am Loyal. i pride myself on being intensely faithful to those around me who are excellent friends.
but this can sometimes backfire. you see, i KNOW im faithful, and can be trusted to help. because of this, i expect the SAME OF THE COMPANY I KEEP. ah. here i sound a bit fierce, a bit demanding. shouldnt i though? isnt that what true friendship means? i dont like to see it in terms of me investing time and effort into a friendship and expecting returns, because that seems shallow and immature. but i DO want to know that my friends appreciate me, and WILL stand up for me when the time comes. though perhaps not as intense as i would be in a given situation, because if everyone was as steadfastly loyal as i was, things would get quite heated quite often. but definitely on a level where i know they have my back, and i can lean on them for support unwavering.
take for instance if a group of friends i was with began back talking someone who i knew and counted among my companions. i would immediately and forcefully stop the conversation, insist that the topic be dropped because of ties to said friend and end with stating my concrete belief in my cohorts values. what i feel is an inappropriate response, bordering on downright betrayal, is to keep quiet and basically ignore people lambasting my close chum. that... can only be described as monstrous.
thats all i have on the subject for now.
some important events:
happy birthday kiat! the dinner buffet at mandarin oriental was magnificent and chatting with old friends was, as it always is, super(hello shi han, marcus koh). 21 at last.
fun and profitable chinese new year gambling at jeromes house on friday, where i lucked out and won 36 dollars during the last round when i volunteered to be banker and pulled a blackjack. lets do that again soon guys.
in closing, ill leave you all a quote which i think is very, very relevant to this post. and my feelings on friendship.
Jesus:
“Because thou art lukewarm, and neither cold nor hot, I will spue thee out of my mouth.”
Thursday, February 18, 2010
yay for regular posting!
"so, what do you think?"
'i dunno. i guess i never really thought about it.'
"im asking you now though, what do you think?"
'...
i think that sometimes problems are better off not being dealt with. it sounds bad, i know. i mean its admirable to face and confront problems directly rather than brush them off, definitely more logical that way... but what if its not the SMARTEST thing to do? im sure i can think of instances where, if we brought something up that should have stayed locked away, we could end up doing a lot more hurt than good.'
"i cant agree, i always believed that if theres a problem, you need to deal with it directly instead of tip toeing around it. it just leaves too much up in the air. what about the future? will the same issue come up again? you will always be burdened with that knowledge, that insistent worrying everytime you come close to the source of the problem. and if the worst does come to pass, wont it just cut even deeper than before, leaving regret at harbouring a problem?"
'maybe...
but dont you think that this view is unrealistic, simply because such a depth of pessimism is currently unfounded? from what i can tell, this self destructive opinion on the world would make the problem just grow infinitely larger, without you even realising it. in that way, confrontation seems probable, even inevitable. no one can deal with that kind of negativity and come out unscathed. its unheard of.
no, that perspective just reflects your attitude, my friend, towards the settlement of disputes. no offence intended at all, but it seems to me that this aggression stems from the fact that you need to settle things on your terms. if the problem were to ever turn out different from how you pictured resolving it, you would be in an even more undesirable, dare i say dire, state than before. of course, thats entirely understandable, give your nature.
but heres my stand: certain problems were not meant to be highlighted and overcame. such problems include miscommunication between friends, the drifting apart of friends and the questionable antics of those in your wider social circle(meant to encompass friends of your friends of your friends). its clear that currently, economical and spiritual factors are not brought up by me, simply because i do not yet have the experience to speak of them in confidence.'
"that cant possibly be right. i hate it when people say oh its just a miscommunication no ones at fault. someone is ALWAYS at fault, and if two people are involved, one is MORE at fault than the other! there is no exception. blame on faulty telecommunications and grammar is childish and redundant. admitting your problem and apologising is so much more responsible, preferable to smoothing over a mistake without any remorse."
'if friends were friends, it would be acceptable for a miscommunication to happen. not too often though. i mean, im sure no one ever wants complications in relationships, and its not as if there was a dedicated, masterfully engineered plan to inconvenience people around you. if anything, miscommunication is an often honest to god mistake. who needs to bring up inconsistencies between messages, as long as the group is there and together. why waste your time being sullen when you should be enjoying yourself? let the matter rest and move on.'
"ill agree with you on the drifting apart of friends though. who wants to sour the mood at a gathering of old acquaintances? even if i were having a quiet drink with one or two of them after the rest have left, i would certainly not make a big issue out of it. after all, i do have newer friends who i can truly relate to in my life now. im not exactly dieing because we dont hang out with each other anymore.
the only reason i would bring it up is if i wanted to be petty and be accusatory. which is hardly a good reason at all."
'and how about that friend, you know, the one y-'
"i dont want to talk about it. that is NOT in contention right now."
'very well. and hows about my third point?'
"well. if a social circle is wide, there will certainly be problems. im gonna ignore the people who just scowl and talk nonsense in the background because their below me. but for the people who directly get in my way... those who place obstacles between me and my objective... ah. those people are in for a huge, unpleasant surprise. i can make life terrible, ABSOLUTELY TERRIBLE, for those who wrong me. eye for an eye. thats how they shall learn, and learn to never cross me again. all for the betterment of myself, and in extension, those who are closer to me in my social circle. those who matter to me."
'well put and well argued.
my friend, its clear that we are are at in impasse.'
"i would say so"
'to be honest, im glad this is so. if either one of us were to ever convince the other that he was entirely and unquestionably correct, we would be a terrible, imbalanced person.'
"we would certainly be indeed."
'same time next week then?'
"why not, not as if we are going anywhere."
'right. goodbye!'
"later."
lau:
'thats not the last room!!!"
'i dunno. i guess i never really thought about it.'
"im asking you now though, what do you think?"
'...
i think that sometimes problems are better off not being dealt with. it sounds bad, i know. i mean its admirable to face and confront problems directly rather than brush them off, definitely more logical that way... but what if its not the SMARTEST thing to do? im sure i can think of instances where, if we brought something up that should have stayed locked away, we could end up doing a lot more hurt than good.'
"i cant agree, i always believed that if theres a problem, you need to deal with it directly instead of tip toeing around it. it just leaves too much up in the air. what about the future? will the same issue come up again? you will always be burdened with that knowledge, that insistent worrying everytime you come close to the source of the problem. and if the worst does come to pass, wont it just cut even deeper than before, leaving regret at harbouring a problem?"
'maybe...
but dont you think that this view is unrealistic, simply because such a depth of pessimism is currently unfounded? from what i can tell, this self destructive opinion on the world would make the problem just grow infinitely larger, without you even realising it. in that way, confrontation seems probable, even inevitable. no one can deal with that kind of negativity and come out unscathed. its unheard of.
no, that perspective just reflects your attitude, my friend, towards the settlement of disputes. no offence intended at all, but it seems to me that this aggression stems from the fact that you need to settle things on your terms. if the problem were to ever turn out different from how you pictured resolving it, you would be in an even more undesirable, dare i say dire, state than before. of course, thats entirely understandable, give your nature.
but heres my stand: certain problems were not meant to be highlighted and overcame. such problems include miscommunication between friends, the drifting apart of friends and the questionable antics of those in your wider social circle(meant to encompass friends of your friends of your friends). its clear that currently, economical and spiritual factors are not brought up by me, simply because i do not yet have the experience to speak of them in confidence.'
"that cant possibly be right. i hate it when people say oh its just a miscommunication no ones at fault. someone is ALWAYS at fault, and if two people are involved, one is MORE at fault than the other! there is no exception. blame on faulty telecommunications and grammar is childish and redundant. admitting your problem and apologising is so much more responsible, preferable to smoothing over a mistake without any remorse."
'if friends were friends, it would be acceptable for a miscommunication to happen. not too often though. i mean, im sure no one ever wants complications in relationships, and its not as if there was a dedicated, masterfully engineered plan to inconvenience people around you. if anything, miscommunication is an often honest to god mistake. who needs to bring up inconsistencies between messages, as long as the group is there and together. why waste your time being sullen when you should be enjoying yourself? let the matter rest and move on.'
"ill agree with you on the drifting apart of friends though. who wants to sour the mood at a gathering of old acquaintances? even if i were having a quiet drink with one or two of them after the rest have left, i would certainly not make a big issue out of it. after all, i do have newer friends who i can truly relate to in my life now. im not exactly dieing because we dont hang out with each other anymore.
the only reason i would bring it up is if i wanted to be petty and be accusatory. which is hardly a good reason at all."
'and how about that friend, you know, the one y-'
"i dont want to talk about it. that is NOT in contention right now."
'very well. and hows about my third point?'
"well. if a social circle is wide, there will certainly be problems. im gonna ignore the people who just scowl and talk nonsense in the background because their below me. but for the people who directly get in my way... those who place obstacles between me and my objective... ah. those people are in for a huge, unpleasant surprise. i can make life terrible, ABSOLUTELY TERRIBLE, for those who wrong me. eye for an eye. thats how they shall learn, and learn to never cross me again. all for the betterment of myself, and in extension, those who are closer to me in my social circle. those who matter to me."
'well put and well argued.
my friend, its clear that we are are at in impasse.'
"i would say so"
'to be honest, im glad this is so. if either one of us were to ever convince the other that he was entirely and unquestionably correct, we would be a terrible, imbalanced person.'
"we would certainly be indeed."
'same time next week then?'
"why not, not as if we are going anywhere."
'right. goodbye!'
"later."
lau:
'thats not the last room!!!"
Tuesday, February 16, 2010
be somewhere else pls
have a look at these l4d videos starring me and my buddies!
the first one you have to turn up the sound all the way though, cause im not using windows 7 so frapps doesnt work well with my mic and the game volume. the 2nd one is completely alright and super hilarious so have fun and enjoy!(p.s. these have been up for some time but i didnt actually do the embeds on the old blog.)
ok!
so anyway i had a drink with chris yesterday after dinner with my dads friends. i was in an ultra bad mood because in the car on the way over i had this huge fight with my mom and it ended with my yelling at her while i slammed the door and walked away. she started leaning on the horn, right next to the starbucks at coronation centre but i couldnt take it anymore so i just ignored it and left.
discussing the problem with chris, he managed to put in words what ive been struggling to define for the longest time(i.e. pretty much my whole life.)
"shes not altogether there."
DAMN RIGHT. THATS EXACTLY IT.
she can embarrass me and my sister in front of people, which kinda explains my sisters super cynical attitude.
for example, we were having a family dinner in my cousin wei weis house. i was in the middle, my mom on the left, wei wei next to her and his girlfriend sitting by him. we were talking and joking about how i, when i was but a young little rascal(no surprises there...), pulled all kinds of stupid crap and got into so much trouble.
when she all of a sudden turns to wei wei and jokingly, JOKINGLY, SAYS "EH REMEMBER WHEN YOU WERE YOUNG AND YOUR MOM USED TO PUNISH YOU BY TAKING THE NUT HAMMER AND SMACKING YOUR HAND HAHAHA". cue awkward silence, raised eyebrows and looks of utter disbelief.
wtf. his mom was sitting right across from us. the whole friggin family is at the table. and she makes this kinda comment. what did she expect?!?! all round laughter and wei joyfully reminiscing about how he used to get beat as a child??? it was terrible lah, how can you bring this up at all, and worse, ON CHINESE NEW YEAR IN FRONT OF EVERYBODY.
also, she can REFUSE to see anyone else opinion other than her own.
the following is the instance where she pissed me off to high heaven.
my father had his friends and their kids over for dinner at my grandmas house. i was at the kids table(more young adults, but you know what im talking about.) with her sitting next to me again(youd think id learn my lesson by now...). after dinner the rest went to gamble and talk in the living room but i stayed with my mom, a friend called wayne and his dad. i continued drinking wine and chatting, and when waynes dad said lets go join them in the next room i was like ok fine. BEING CONSIDERATE, i brought the bottle of wine with me in case anyone was still drinking.
sitting down next to my great grandma, i poured myself another cup and joined in the conversation. next thing i know my mom comes up to me and says "eh know your limits dont drink so much". and im like ok why do you say that im not drunk and falling over the place, i DO know my limits. it would have ended there, but she walked past me THREE MORE TIMES SAYING THE EXACT SAME THING.
it began to get annoying so after i finished my wine i went to the kitchen and dropped the glass in the sink. she walks over with a glass of water and says "nah drink your getting drunk". i immediately replied "why on earth are you giving this to me? do i look drunk. how do you know im drunk? im completely fine."
at that point it was getting late and i had plans to meet chris so she gave me a lift over. but in the ride over, it got fucking ugly.
"eh you know you were so rude just now. why were you still drinking when everyone else stopped."
after a moments pause...
"im sorry, you thought that i was being rude? how on earth was i being rude?"
"you were still drinking when everyone stopped!"
"YES but how is that rude?!?!"
"you should know that theres a time and place to drink."
"yes and its chinese new year, a time for celebration/drinking. and not like i was going overboard, whats the deal here?"
"yeah everyone stopped drinking already why did you bring the bottle to the living room? just to drink yourself?"
notice the change in pace of the argument here. its slight, but still very obvious because she seems to be unrelenting in trying to find fault with what i did.
"what?!?! the bottle..!!? i was trying to be CONSIDERATE with that! i thought if they still wanted to drink then i bring the bottle over lah!"
"yeah but you should open your eyes and see no one is drinking."
"WE WERE IN THE KITCHEN THEY WERE IN THE LIVING ROOM HOW THE HELL AM I SUPPOSED TO KNOW?!?! BUY AND PUT AN EXTRA PAIR OF EYES IN POPOS LIVING ROOM?!?!"
it just went downhill from there.
SO YES AFTER MANY MANY YEARS AND DOZENS OF THESE KINDS OF INCIDENTS, IS IT NOT A SURPRISE THAT MY MOMS CHILDREN ARE EMBARRASSED, ASHAMED EVEN, OF THEIR MOM?
keep in mind, we have tried addressing the problem before. SO MANY TIMES. but she just doesnt get it, being NOT ALTOGETHER THERE.
ok, end of post. ive vented enough for one day, and dinners calling. later yall
chris:
"SHES NOT ALTOGETHER THERE"
the first one you have to turn up the sound all the way though, cause im not using windows 7 so frapps doesnt work well with my mic and the game volume. the 2nd one is completely alright and super hilarious so have fun and enjoy!(p.s. these have been up for some time but i didnt actually do the embeds on the old blog.)
ok!
so anyway i had a drink with chris yesterday after dinner with my dads friends. i was in an ultra bad mood because in the car on the way over i had this huge fight with my mom and it ended with my yelling at her while i slammed the door and walked away. she started leaning on the horn, right next to the starbucks at coronation centre but i couldnt take it anymore so i just ignored it and left.
discussing the problem with chris, he managed to put in words what ive been struggling to define for the longest time(i.e. pretty much my whole life.)
"shes not altogether there."
DAMN RIGHT. THATS EXACTLY IT.
she can embarrass me and my sister in front of people, which kinda explains my sisters super cynical attitude.
for example, we were having a family dinner in my cousin wei weis house. i was in the middle, my mom on the left, wei wei next to her and his girlfriend sitting by him. we were talking and joking about how i, when i was but a young little rascal(no surprises there...), pulled all kinds of stupid crap and got into so much trouble.
when she all of a sudden turns to wei wei and jokingly, JOKINGLY, SAYS "EH REMEMBER WHEN YOU WERE YOUNG AND YOUR MOM USED TO PUNISH YOU BY TAKING THE NUT HAMMER AND SMACKING YOUR HAND HAHAHA". cue awkward silence, raised eyebrows and looks of utter disbelief.
wtf. his mom was sitting right across from us. the whole friggin family is at the table. and she makes this kinda comment. what did she expect?!?! all round laughter and wei joyfully reminiscing about how he used to get beat as a child??? it was terrible lah, how can you bring this up at all, and worse, ON CHINESE NEW YEAR IN FRONT OF EVERYBODY.
also, she can REFUSE to see anyone else opinion other than her own.
the following is the instance where she pissed me off to high heaven.
my father had his friends and their kids over for dinner at my grandmas house. i was at the kids table(more young adults, but you know what im talking about.) with her sitting next to me again(youd think id learn my lesson by now...). after dinner the rest went to gamble and talk in the living room but i stayed with my mom, a friend called wayne and his dad. i continued drinking wine and chatting, and when waynes dad said lets go join them in the next room i was like ok fine. BEING CONSIDERATE, i brought the bottle of wine with me in case anyone was still drinking.
sitting down next to my great grandma, i poured myself another cup and joined in the conversation. next thing i know my mom comes up to me and says "eh know your limits dont drink so much". and im like ok why do you say that im not drunk and falling over the place, i DO know my limits. it would have ended there, but she walked past me THREE MORE TIMES SAYING THE EXACT SAME THING.
it began to get annoying so after i finished my wine i went to the kitchen and dropped the glass in the sink. she walks over with a glass of water and says "nah drink your getting drunk". i immediately replied "why on earth are you giving this to me? do i look drunk. how do you know im drunk? im completely fine."
at that point it was getting late and i had plans to meet chris so she gave me a lift over. but in the ride over, it got fucking ugly.
"eh you know you were so rude just now. why were you still drinking when everyone else stopped."
after a moments pause...
"im sorry, you thought that i was being rude? how on earth was i being rude?"
"you were still drinking when everyone stopped!"
"YES but how is that rude?!?!"
"you should know that theres a time and place to drink."
"yes and its chinese new year, a time for celebration/drinking. and not like i was going overboard, whats the deal here?"
"yeah everyone stopped drinking already why did you bring the bottle to the living room? just to drink yourself?"
notice the change in pace of the argument here. its slight, but still very obvious because she seems to be unrelenting in trying to find fault with what i did.
"what?!?! the bottle..!!? i was trying to be CONSIDERATE with that! i thought if they still wanted to drink then i bring the bottle over lah!"
"yeah but you should open your eyes and see no one is drinking."
"WE WERE IN THE KITCHEN THEY WERE IN THE LIVING ROOM HOW THE HELL AM I SUPPOSED TO KNOW?!?! BUY AND PUT AN EXTRA PAIR OF EYES IN POPOS LIVING ROOM?!?!"
it just went downhill from there.
SO YES AFTER MANY MANY YEARS AND DOZENS OF THESE KINDS OF INCIDENTS, IS IT NOT A SURPRISE THAT MY MOMS CHILDREN ARE EMBARRASSED, ASHAMED EVEN, OF THEIR MOM?
keep in mind, we have tried addressing the problem before. SO MANY TIMES. but she just doesnt get it, being NOT ALTOGETHER THERE.
ok, end of post. ive vented enough for one day, and dinners calling. later yall
chris:
"SHES NOT ALTOGETHER THERE"
Monday, February 15, 2010
out with the old, in with the lau
good morning friends!
theres a time and place for everything...
unfortunately right now is not the best time for a post because im very drowsy and cannot think of anything good to put up. not a very brilliant start to a blog, i know, but hey ive got all the time in the world to
1) write literature, both prose and poems
2) comment on the ineptitude so abundant around me
3) document great, fun times
4) HAVE FUN DOING ALL OF THE ABOVE.
basically ill definitely keep this blog more updated than the old one, especially considering it kinda petered out after a bit. i think there were several reasons i more or less loss the drive to REGULARLY write stuff. and thus there will be several changes to the new blog, probably the most noticable being i will stop WRITING SONG LYRICS AT THE BOTTOM OF EACH POST. too bothersome lah!
instead ill either put up a phrase or saying that caught my notice, and might or might not pertain to the content of the post!
ok thats it for now, later friends!
khai:
"MARDUSA!!!"
theres a time and place for everything...
unfortunately right now is not the best time for a post because im very drowsy and cannot think of anything good to put up. not a very brilliant start to a blog, i know, but hey ive got all the time in the world to
1) write literature, both prose and poems
2) comment on the ineptitude so abundant around me
3) document great, fun times
4) HAVE FUN DOING ALL OF THE ABOVE.
basically ill definitely keep this blog more updated than the old one, especially considering it kinda petered out after a bit. i think there were several reasons i more or less loss the drive to REGULARLY write stuff. and thus there will be several changes to the new blog, probably the most noticable being i will stop WRITING SONG LYRICS AT THE BOTTOM OF EACH POST. too bothersome lah!
instead ill either put up a phrase or saying that caught my notice, and might or might not pertain to the content of the post!
ok thats it for now, later friends!
khai:
"MARDUSA!!!"
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